Martha Friel just turned forty. Once, she worked at Vogue and planned to write a novel. Now, she creates internet content. She used to live in Paris. Now she lives in a gated community in Oxford that she hates but cannot bear to leave. But she must leave, now that her husband Patrick, the kind who cooks, throws her birthday parties, who loves her and has only ever wanted her to be happy, has just moved out. Because there's something wrong with Martha and there has been for a long time. When she was seventeen, a little bomb went off in her brain and she was never the same. But countless doctors, endless therapy, and every kind of drug later, she still doesn't know what's wrong, why she spends days unable to get out of bed or alienates both strangers and her loved ones with casually cruel remarks. And she has nowhere to go except her childhood home: a bohemian (dilapidated) townhouse in a romantic (rundown) part of London, to live with her mother, a minorly important sculptor (and major drinker) and her father, a famous poet (though unpublished) and try to survive without the devoted, potty-mouthed sister who made all the chaos bearable back then, and is now too busy or too fed up to deal with her. But maybe, by starting over, Martha will get to write a better ending for herself, and she'll find out that she's not quite finished after all.

Originally published in Australia in 2020 by Fourth Estate.